I'm a planner. I love planning things out.
Sort of actually.
I hate event planning, but for a small group I enjoy it. Like 2-4 people, a comfortable car load. Planning where to go, what to see, what to eat, where the best coffee is along the way, where to stay if necessary.
I actually have a list of currently 9 places I hope to visit in Oregon. Plus as I hear about or research coffee shops, I am always bookmarking the good ones on my yelp page. (Check it out here if you want! A little tip is if it has 'roasters' in the name its probably a better shop than others.) Comment if you have any recommendations in any city.
So back to it, so I love planning, especially for small amounts or personal things, but throughout the majority of the last year I was stressing on what was next. I was graduating school without knowing where I would be or how I would afford to be there.
What will I be doing? A simple, yet huge question.
My plan would have been: graduate, two weeks downtime, then start my design assistant job I already had known I had before spring came.
But God's plan was to wait.
And to learn a few things in the waiting.
God did huge things with my life in the waiting period, honestly huge. I got to take a trip of a lifetime and road trip Iceland and I got to move to stinkin' Portland, Oregon. Neither of which would have been able to happen without a waiting period, and if they were in that "two weeks downtime" they would have been too stressful and too rushed to enjoy. I would not have been able to rest and reflect.
That was something else I learned to do more, resting and reflecting.
My time between school and work was so good apart from worrying about job stuff. I got to wake up and take slow mornings (one of my favorite things). I would make my coffee (pour over of course, either Chemex, V60, or Kalita Wave. We had almost too many ways to brew coffee in my house.), open my Bible, spend time with God, and prepare for the day.
This allowed me to reflect on this last stage of life: my time in college, my time in Eugene. This time was essential to my growth, the fact that I was even spending personal time with God was due to my time in Eugene. It helped me to realize that I needed to truly lean on my Savior Jesus, to know that He is right beside me and has taken care of the biggest of needs and the biggest of stresses, which I will write about soon. It gave me a heart of thanksgiving for the people I have become so close to and who have been such an encouragement in my walk.
The prayer came to me one day where I told God, "When I only wanted, You met my needs." Amidst all the worry that comes with being in a season of uncertainty or a life of being human we desire so many things, good and bad, but our Father meets our true needs. Yes I needed a job, but more importantly I needed to learn what it truly means to lean on Jesus and to know this is real. Let this waiting period you are in, or will be in, be a growth opportunity. Yes pursue what you need to, but be present in this time, ask what you need to surrender and be with God.
When I only wanted, You met my needs.
"Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." 2 Corinthians 9:7-8